From a very young age I have always been able to float between the world of boys and girls! I was a tomboy in a dress! I could make friends with the boys in class by talking about boy things like Batman and Legos. I could hang with the girls by playing with Barbie and having tea parties. Some girls would be jealous of the fact that the boys would talk and hangout with me, but it worked in the favor because I could help set dates up and vis versa!
As I got older I found that it was much more fun to hang with the guys for there was less drama but I still liked being around girls! It was not until I went away to school/College that I noticed my feelings for both were the same and so was kissing.
been lucky to have understanding friends and a few family members that I have let in on the secret. The most understanding person has been my husband who thinks it's best of both worlds for we can check out peeps without making anyone jealous or uncomfortable. He loves me for who I am weather that be Bi or straight!
I believe in the bible and God which is why its been so hard for me to tell the rest of my family and i am not sure that i ever will, unless they find this blog but i will cross the bridge when i come to it! For now i am just going to be enjoying life the best way i know how just by living it to the best of my abilities for its my life and no one else's!
Some days it feels like it was only yesturday that we got the news of your passing, it was a hard day but in a way a happy day too for it ment that you were out of pain. Sad though for it also meant that you were out of our lives. You may be gone but not forgotten. As the years have gone by the pain has become less but I know in my heart you are still around watching us! Laughing and crying with us. Anytime I watch Star Trek I can hear your voice and our after episode late night talks. One the cold nights your blanket gives extra warmth and on the warm nights your blanket feels extra cool. I like to think that you are proud of the way my life has turned and the fact that I am spending my wings and finding my own feet! You were and will always be one of my bestest friends! I am a better person for having know you! LeeLee you may be gone but you will never be forgotten for you live in the hearts of all who have loved you!
So proud of these, for i have kept them alive for almost a year, usually i am lucky if my plants live for a week! The vines represent my growth here in Cali and the fact that sometimes change is the best thing that can happen! Change is what helps us grow and spreading our wings really does help make us fly.
What an epic weekend of friendship and Star Wars. SWCA was everything i hoped it to be and so much more. It was great seeing the SW.Com family and being able to pick up right where we left off. It was great meeting new friends who fit it with group that one would think they have always been with the group.
It's so nice being understood and surrounded by likeminded souls, peep who geeky out about the same thing you do instead of life at you and/or call you crazy! This is one of the best thing about celebrations, finding a place where you feel that you belong and no one judges you! A place one can call home with peeps who understand and get you with no questions being asked! A place with instance friends and family who are happy to see you and welcome you with open arms! A place where one can be themselves!#SWCA
This past Saturday i turned 29 (for the 4th time)! My birthday has always been a big deal seeing as half of my family was born in march! When i was younger we would pick a day and have one big crazy family party. As i got older we got to pick what we wanted to do. But we would also end up spending the whole month celebrating. Now that i am older and married The birthday month has just become the birthday weekend.
The one things i have always looked forward to is the birthday call from my dad, but even that has changed and i would get upset when it did not happen, kinda like how he used to spend me flowers for valentine's day but now i am just over it. No need to make a big fuss about it for it is what it is. I have always realized that the day not matter so when the call comes, its just another reason to celebrate and it extends the celebration. While talking with my Grandma the other, she told me how amazed that she was that i could always find the silver lining in any situation good or bad. I told her that its because she taught me right, for life happens and there is no need to cry over spilled milk.
The best thing to do when one is having a bad day is to smile and try to find the good in it for finding the good makes any bad day just a bit better and finding a reason to smile always makes one feel a bit more happy!
This has been such a fun weekend! Friday was awesome getting to spend time with old friends and having yummy eats along with an awesome party!
this weekend brought into focus how amazing my friends and family are! Its such a blessing having this amazing support group and makes days like today not as sad as they once were. For while its my Mum's life day, its also Arkey's death day. In years past it would be a happy and sad day but i have learned over the years that while sad and its ok to be sad, he would want us to be happy and celebrate life. For that is what he brought, with a smile and a laugh. So this year is the year not to make a big deal about this, to acknowledge what day it is and to remember the good times.
He is looking down on us and smiling at the people we have become, he is there with us for the big and small moments in life.
