Tuesday, December 25, 2012

My Big Brother

I know that this is going to sound silly to most, and not all are going to understand but this is my blog and my feelings, so deal with it!

Back in the day of SW.com i become the lil'sis to the four horsemen. It was fun because i looked at it like having older brothers and one even took my under their wing so to speak or as much as on can on a message board. But it become more then that, when i was having a bad night he was with an ear for listing and some words of comfort or advise. If a laugh was needed he know how to make it happen or just to be there. He has been there for both of my heart breaks and all of the craziness that is my life. I have tried to due my part and return the favor but i fear it was not as well as what he has been able to do for me.

Now life is making other changes and he is moving on as it seems like most are doing, we are just getting to that age where life is becoming more real and the time for internet games it becoming less and less. But its been more then that because of SW.com and port haven most have become real life friends and the bonds of true friendship are there,Its has become something of a true family feeling!

So its with a heavy heart that i wish my big brother the best of luck in his real life and hopes that everything works out for the best!

Thank you for all that you have done for me over the years and just for being you. thank you for lessons on life and the words of wisdom, thank you for the laughs and for caring. Thank you!

This Christmas

i was so excited for this Christmas because not only was it going to be time with the family but froggy is here to and i was so happy that he was going to be able to spend it with my family. But then sadly i find out he had to work Christmas eve which is when my family does Christmas. I thought with him being here that we were going to see more of each other and get to do the fun Holiday couple stuff....but it seems like we have seen less and less of each other...here is to hoping that 2013 is going to be different.

Sunday, December 23, 2012

christmas and whomas

Its almost Christmas and that means so many things. Its one of the few times when my whole family gets together and we do the family thing. My middle sister and I have a movie Marathon of our fav movies and we add some Christmas movies to the mix. As we have gotten older, we are finding it harder to stay up late but we still make an attempt to try and beat last years hour.

Christmas would not be complete without the doctor who christmas special aka whomas! It also a fun show and a great way to reconnect with my friends across the pound. It also brings so many people together and gives a nice break to the craziness that is the Holiday season. 

This year i was so excited for froggy to finally be able to join in my family's Christmas craziness but sadly he has to work, so we are going to make the best of it, but its kinda a bummer because the family wont be complete this holiday season. Thankfully there is news to look forward too and of course we will have next Christmas!  

The other great thing about Christmas is all of the holiday party's and get together with family friends and to remember that Christ birth is the true reason for the season. Its a time to give thanks and praise for all the good and bad of the past year. To give thanks to the Lord for all that he has done and left undone for growth in the coming year!

Saturday, October 27, 2012

The Plans

Since the election is almost here and early voting starting today, I thought that it would be a good idea to Share the Plans of those running for President so that everyone can be an informed voter and make the choice that is right for them!

The President's Plan

Mitt's Plan

Gary Johnson's Plan

Friday, October 19, 2012


That is how many days there are to until Sean  (Froggy) and I say "I DO"!

This event has been 9 (10 years by the wedding) years in the making. There have been so many different roads and paths to get here, so many ups and downs. But its all been leading up to this! I know that we are still a year out and there are sure to be more ups and downs, but we are committed to each other! 

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

9 years ago....

I was having a really bad night, so i went online in hopes that my "Brother Wish.E.Wish" would be there. Sadly he was not but my friend Lisa was, Lisa and i talked until l she had to go. she was worried about leaving me so she sent one of her friends to talk, turns our that was the best thing she could have done. For not only did it end up saving my life in more ways then one, it was the start of this crazy adventure that would become Sean and I!

I know from the moment i hard his voice in November of 2003 and the fact that our first phone conversation last four plus hows that he was the one for me. My theory was confirmed when he made his first trip out to see me in December of 2003. The fact that he cried for me when i cry not, i will never forget the feeling of his tears on my face, as i closed the book of MAT (for what i thought was for good).  I remember the first time he said "I Love You". I was sitting outside my moms house while national championship game was going on inside. I was still not in the best mind set for i was still trying to get over MAT and that sadly made Sean my rebound guy.

I don't like the next part in our story but it has to be told
Then right before I was to graduate  Someone new came into my life and He was here in town. where as Sean was still in Cali. So in January of 2006, i meet the "Pink Ninja" and by my birthday of that year, the ninja and i become an us. I did not tell Sean because i still wanted him to come to my graduation  So i  had my whole family cover for me, until My middle sister had enough and told me if did not tell Sean by her birthday (which happened to be 6.6.6 that year) she was going to give the family a gift herself and tell Sean  So i finally broke down and told Sean the truth  The Ninja and i had our first date on my sisters birthday (we went to see the omen which would be a sign in its self).  it was about a few months after the Ninja and I, that i started thinking that i may have mad a mistake. It was not until that i got that awful call from Bestie friend "E" telling me that Arky had passed away. At first i thought that "E" was joking, but then i realized that she was crying. I was in shock and the Ninja did nothing for me. So i called Sean and he was there more for over the phone, then the Ninja was who was right next to me. The other thing Sean did for me that stood out during our time of next being together was he let me listen to all of the star wars celebration 4 opening ceremorys via phone, since i could not be there. The back of my mind was exciting because he still cared.

Flash forwarding to my just before my 26th birthday. The Ninja calls things off and Karma totally kicked my butt. I never dreamed that Sean would take me back, after i killed his heart. But we started really talking again and He even came out to visit that summer. He ended up taking me back and we have been together ever sense.

Now our wedding is only 368 days away. We are finally together in the same state learning how to live and not kill each other. we are learning so much about each other, that each and every day is a new day. I am so thankful that for the past 9 years that i cant wait to see what the next how in store for us!

Sunday, October 14, 2012


This weekend has gone by way to fast, i guess some of that is due to the fact that i went into work on Saturday for four hours and then went home to figure out what dinner was going to be. I wish that the weekends were a bit longer, because there is never enough time to get everything done. Tonight i am going to see MythBusters with AWH and Linds, which should be fun. Froggy has to work today so sadly he wont be able to join in the fun. Today has been good, Just watched Felix Baumgarder make his historic jump from space.

Saturday, October 13, 2012

making dinner!

so i am not a great cook, but i love cooking, well make that baking. so tonight froggy and i are have started our week of dog sitting for mom and moms kitchen  is so much better then my own so i thought it would be a fun idea to show off my cooking skill and make a yummy dinner, already off to a bad start for a bought and cooked way too much meat, but i am going to save it and we can have tacos for lunch tomorrow. So that is good. once the main course is out of the oven i can get to work on the cake, I really hoping that dinner is not going to be a complete disaster !

so Dinner was very Yummy!

The Bridge!

I have this friend, who has become kinda like a bridge from my past to now. He knows both the FCJKS (First Coast Jedi Knights)and the Casbah Crew. He is still part of my life to see the present with froggy (even if its only Via Facebook). I am so thankful for his counting friendship even if we don't see each other. Being invited to his birthday bash a few months ago was more important and a big milestone in my life. It helped me fully put the past with TP fully behind me and showed me that i was able to do things by myself. That i am much stronger then i give myself credit for. His party was just what i needed and i am not even sure that i can ever thank him fully for the gift that he give without even knowing it. My only complaint is that i wish we could see each other more, but he is a busy man as am i. I would Like to think that Dman is in my life for a lifetime, but do we really know how the season will treat us from year to year.

 Reason, Season, or Lifetime People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.

 When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty; to provide you with guidance and support; to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

 Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.

 LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. — Unknown

 I am just thankful for all of the friendship that i have now, the ones that have lasted though the ups and downs of this crazy world we live in. I know that to some i have not been the best of keeping in contact and coming to visit. I know other we hardly take even on Facebook and for that i am so very sorry, Just know that you are all never far from my heart!

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Debates 2012

Thankfully This year i know who i am going to vote for, as i believe most of my peeps do. We may not all be voting for the same person but that is what makes things great, to each there own. with that being said, things can get kinda nasty which is why i find myself watching the debates on channels that lean towards the other guy, just to get a feel of what the other side is thinking. its really help in conversations the next day and i wish that more people thought to look at things from the other-side.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Hard to believe but Last Month Chloe Ianto turned 5! its amazing how much time has pasted since i first got her. how much has changed and how much has stayed the same. Its funny how the new become old and the old become new.
This is most of my crazy online family! Its kinda funny thinking back to how long we have all been talking to each other and the amazing thing is that it seems like no matter how much has passed, we all pick up right where we left off like no time has past at all. that is what a true friendship is in my book. I am very grateful for the fact that we have all made the choice to stay connected with one another even though it will be so easy to lose touch. sure the friendship have changed and grown but that is only because we have done the same our-self for as much as we would like it to nothing stays the same forever!
This is the rest of my crazy family!

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

New Place!

The best way to learn about a person is to move with them. you get a glimpse at all different side of a person: the good, the bad and the nasty! if you both make it out alive then you can handle almost anything else that life decides to toss your way! this has been a learning experiences for both of us and we are still over a year away from the wedding, thank goodness! i feel that by the time the wedding rolls around we will be able to read each other thoughts. this is going to be one crazy year but i am looking forward to it and beside life is what you make it! this is going to be one adventure that hopefully will last a lifetime and beyond!