Tuesday, October 10, 2017

I had

A friend recently ask me why Carrie Fisher's death hit me harder then other celebrities. The answer is because she was on of my hero's and I have also gotten to meet her in person.

She showed me that it was ok to be different and having a mental illness was something to be considered normal instead of a curse. In her role as Princess Leia she showed that sometimes you need to be kickass and rescue yourselves while it's ok to be a princess too.

She may have not made the best life choices, but she owned up to them and was trying to make the best of life.

While the new trailer for the last Jedi has gotten me excited for the movie, it's still going to be hard to see Carrie on screen. But I am also thankful that we can see her on the big screen one last time.

It's going to be a long wait until December!

Thursday, October 5, 2017

Been home a week now

Finally getting back into the swing of things, and it's amazing being back in Cali. I am been marking good progress on doing what I need to in order to land my dream job.

Totally loving the cooler fall weather and the fun that has already been had with some of the Cali crew and more fun is waiting to be had :).

October is going to be an super fun month.

Friday, September 22, 2017

What a month

It's been a crazy time, with my sister giving birth to her first daughter. A hurricane hitting us and losing power for 5 days. The hurricane also messing up plans of another FL SW reunion. But thankfully we all made it through the storm safe and sound.

The hardest thing about this is the fact that froggy and I have been apart for so long, I think 3 weeks is my max. While I been having fun with east coast family, I am so excited to be heading back to the west coast!

Also so thankful that the beach condo is still standing and I can enjoy some beach time.

Thursday, August 24, 2017


Sad and excited for I am looking forward to my trip to the east coast but I am sad about the fact I am leaving Froggy for a month, it's going to be the longest we have been apart since saying I do.

I am excited for the fact that I am going to get to see the east coast family and friends and being there for the birth of my sis is baby. But I am sad about the fact I will be missing so much goings ons on the west coast.

But it's going to fun being on the east coast again and going to the lake and Beach will do my soul some good!

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

A friend said it best

What have we become? Changing history to appease a few? A society focused on always blaming someone or something else for their status instead of being the change. The old saying 'the past is the past' has new meaning: ' the past hurts me and people like me collectively so we are going to force them/the man/you to change it so we can feel better about life and then I'm going back to my couch to see what else needs changing.' Does changing the name of a school impact the learning ability of the students? Does removing statues and flags and eliminating facts from our nation's history, our history, seriously impact an individual's ability to succeed or make a good life? It's a paradigm shift for me. Shouldn't we all look forward, and aren't we as  individuals afforded the freedom to choose our path?

Ghandi said, "A nation's culture resides in the hearts and in the soul of its people."

Maybe we have lost track of unity and forgiveness. We certainly have stopped being a people who respect our history, the different opinions of our fellow humans, and the concept of love one another. It is a long road to find our way back to a place where we cry for our fallen, fight for the weak and rejoice in the collective beauty of this life and planet we share together. And what will they write about us in the history books? Will we become the society who was too selfish, too self-centered to rejoice in the beauty and diversity of this nation? Will we be remembered as the generation who destroyed and eliminated history in an effort to appease those with the loudest voices? History does not oppress a society,  it merely tells the story and bears witness of time before. Would we as living souls be ok if another person or group of people took away 10 important years of our personal existence because it made them feel a certain way?

I beg all to look at the present, move forward, and make a positive difference. Teach your children right and wrong, not right now and who cares if it's wrong, do it anyways and I will support you. Stand up for veterans who stood up for you. Properly care for our parents and grandparents, no matter what they need, which is typically just someone who cares.  Understand again that actions have consequences - good and bad. And start over in your own understanding that people are inherently good. Search for it everyday. Care enough. Give what you can, and give back in kindness received times 10. Be grateful, not hateful. This is not intended as a political post, but intended as only my opinion on the state of our existence as we live it.

Friday, August 11, 2017

Last night

Was so much fun, went on a gals date and found a new friend! We also have a lot in common including our love of chess! Love it when I can connect with someone who understand!  It's also a great way to start the weekend!

I am just bummed that I am going to be leaving soon (going back to visit family as my sis is due to have a baby in September)! But it will be nice to see the east coast peeps again!

Friday, August 4, 2017

Looking back

At the last few weeks, I now realize that things could have been done differently. And I fear that since things were done the way they were it might have caused what could have been a great friendship to now only be one of acquaintances.

Now if only I could go back and find a way to fix things but I have to remember if things are meant to be they will find a way.

Wednesday, July 26, 2017

kinda over things

I know that it's been forever since my last post and for that I am sorry but I am getting back to me, so it should be all groovy again.

I am just feel so sick of people saying the want to hang out with me but when I tell them when I am free, they never get back to me and then post pics of them hanging out with others. They also always say wish that you could join but never invite, so how can I join?

Also bugs when people as when you are free and you tell them, then they stop talking to you. If you don't want to hang that is fine just say so, but it hurts more when you say nothing!

Monday, June 26, 2017

2 inches

Story time : so last week we went Maine for vacation and the thing that I hate most about vacation is flying. Because even though I have lost a lot of weight I am still too big for some seats and have to use an seatbelt extender. So much humiliation because it makes it seem like I have not lost all of the weight.

While on vacation we did a lot of walking and my family was impressed that for once I could keep up with them, which gave me such a good feeling. But because of all the walking, eating more healthy, and I was able to keep up with my normal work out routine I did not need to use and extender on the way back.

I will keep working at becoming the best version of myself.

Thursday, June 1, 2017

Good choice vs yummy choice

So I been feeling good about myself and making better choices that is until tonight. instead of a making a healthy choice for dinner. I made an unhealthy one and ended up eating too much and now I have an upset tummy.

It also made me realize that I am never going to be as healthy as I want, if I keep making poor choices when it comes to eating. My workout game is on point and seems to be working, but what good is that if I keep messing up the progress I make with my bad eating?

Monday, May 22, 2017

Another life day celebration

For my Esa, my soulmate, My other half, my world!

As the years go by, I find myself thinking how lucky we are to still have each other and be a close as we are, even with us being on different coast. We are only a phone or text away. We still understand each other and are there for each other.

Sure we don't talk as much as we would like, but we don't let it stop us. We make the best of what we have and know that what we have still work!

Esa, is still the amazing, elephant loving super villain. She is strong, brave and amazing, she is loved by so many !

Here is to the next 5 Thousand Years of friendship and beyond!

I hope that her life day has been as awesome and wonderful and geeky as she, hope that your has been filled with extra love and all of your wishes come true! May this be your best year yet!

Love and miss you, hopefully we can find a way to see each other this year :) !

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

If you still ask questions you still care

Just love it when people stop watching a show or reading a book series but keep ask what is happening and giving thoughts on what they think is going on but are wrong since they have no idea because they give up. If you still care that much, just keep watching the show or continue to read the series.

Monday, May 1, 2017

LeeLee day 2017

I know what today is, besides being May 1st (May day) it's also LeeLee day. But something is different this year, I am not sad sad, I am sad because I feel like I should be sad but I am not. (Hope that makes some sense). I know that she is gone and I know that she is looking down on me.  I know that she is in a much better place and pain free. I think maybe that is why I am not sad sad this year. I have finally gotten over the fact that she is gone, that she is in a better place and pain free. I know she has been gone for many years and each year it gets better. This year might be the most pain free. She is gone but not forgotten, she lives in our hearts and in the light of the moon!

Wednesday, April 26, 2017

Workouts are better with support

At the end of last month a friend asked me if I would like to join her workout support group and I said yes!

It was the best thing that has happened to me because I have found a group of girls who lift each other up and don't try to sell products just support! 

As we are coming to the end of the month I am happy to report that I am only 20lbs away from Phase one of my fitness goals!

I am finding that I have more energy, that I am sleeping better and can fit back into some of my favorite outfits. 

This is a new start and I feel like I can keep it going and hit my phase one goal by the goal date!

Sure things have not been the best and there were a few set backs but I did not let that stop me. For I kept reminding myself that tomorrow is a new day, a fresh start, and a chance to fix the mistakes of yesterday! 

If I can do it, you can do it too!

Sunday, April 2, 2017

Fun weekend

This weekend was a fun and Crazy one but the good kind of crazy!

Neil and Denise came up to help celebrate Chris and Kate's upcoming wedding!  We along with other people / friends played a real life game of life! They put in a lot of work and it totally paid off.

While at the party Amy and I got to talking about fitness goals and the fact each person's body reacts to working out differently and the key is finding out what works best for you! It was nice chatting with someone who cares about the goal and not trying to sell one something that might now work for them!

Starting Monday a new workout plan will be put in motion and this one I might actually stick too since it involves something I am passionate about and love doing!  I am actually excited and looking forward to seeing how it goes!

Monday, March 27, 2017

It's my

Birthday eve and for the first time in forever it does not feel like my birthday!  Instead I am feeling bummed about not being able to share the day with My Esa, feeling excited for those that are going to C8 ( Star Wars Celebration Orlando ), but also bummed for the fact that Froggy and I can't make in!

I'm also fighting a cold, so my mind is more spacey then normal!

But on the flipside is that I have gotten a few early birthday gifts. Also got to enjoy two movie dates with Froggy! Been able to reconnect with an old friend! Been able to talk with my east coast and the Fab 4 are as close as ever (even if you don't get to talk as much as we would like) !

So I am just trying to remember that each day is a new day filled with good and bad!

Friday, March 24, 2017

Regarding today

My friend Steven said it best :

"When Democrats are in office, Government passes laws that nobody knows the details of.

When Republicans are in office, unknown laws are dead on arrival."

Here are my thoughts - Is one way better, I am not really sure if one can say at this point in but I will let you my dear readers be the judge of that!

What I do know is that these are interesting times that we are living in. Each day is a different spin of the hour glass, for better or worse we just keep putting one foot in front of the other!

Thursday, March 16, 2017

Its been a year

Since I lost my job and not much has really changed. I am still jobless but now have an idea as to what I really want to do. Sometimes I still feel like a failure but I am learning to get past that. I am getting better with organizations skills so that is some improvements.

The thing that has stood out the most is the support from my friends and family.  They have put up with good days and the bad. They are still by my side though it all, giving encouragement and supporting words and deeds.

I am so thankful for my husband who has not looked down on me, but instead lifted me up. He has been my rock and safe harbor in this storm. I am so very lucky and thankful for having him by my side.

This is the start of a new year and I have hope that things are going to work out and this time next year, there will be even more improvements.

Tuesday, February 14, 2017

Valentines day 2017

We believe in celebrating each other each and every day, so Valentines day is almost just like any other day to us! But it's still fun to get dolled up for a night  out on the town!

We started the night at one of our favorite places for drinks and apps! 

We decided that the place was getting a bit crowded and loud (we could hardly hear each other speak). So we decided to grab dinner and eat at home while watching a movie! 

It may not have been the most romantic but after all it was the most perfect for us! We both had fun and got to spend time laughing and talking with each other! And in the end isn't that what Valentines day all about, just being able to be with the ones you love and spend time together? 

Tuesday, January 31, 2017

14 years

Tomorrow (February 1st 2017) will mark 14 years since we lost the The Columbia and the seven brave men and women that were on board, may the never be forgotten!
please say a prayer for the familes of the Columbia 7!

"My fellow Americans, this day has brought terrible news and great sadness to our country. At 9 o'clock this morning, Mission Control in Houston lost contact with our space shuttle Columbia. A short time later, debris was seen falling from the skies above Texas. The Columbia's lost. There are no survivors.

Onboard was a crew of seven -- Colonel Rick Husband, Lieutenant Colonel Michael Anderson, Commander Laurel Clark, Captain David Brown, Commander William McCool, Dr. Kalpana Chawla, and Ilan Ramon a colonel in the Israeli air force.

These men and women assumed great risk in this service to all humanity. In an age when space flight has come to seem almost routine, it is easy to overlook the dangers of travel by rocket and the difficulties of navigating the fierce outer atmosphere of the earth.

These astronauts knew the dangers, and they faced them willingly, knowing they had a high and noble purpose in life. Because of their courage and daring and idealism, we will miss them all the more.

All Americans today are thinking, as well, of the families of these men and women who have been given this sudden shock and grief. You're not alone. Our entire nation grieves with you. And those you loved will always have the respect and gratitude of this country.

The cause in which they died will continue. Mankind is led into the darkness beyond our world by the inspiration of discovery and the longing to understand. Our journey into space will go on.

In the skies today, we saw destruction and tragedy. Yet farther than we can see, there is comfort and hope.

In the words of the prophet Isaiah, "Lift your eyes and look to the heavens. Who created all these? He who brings out the starry hosts one by one and calls them each by name. Because of his great power and mighty strength, not one of them is missing."

The same creator who names the stars also knows the names of the seven souls we mourn today. The crew of the shuttle Columbia did not return safely to Earth, yet we can pray that all are safely home.

May God bless the grieving families, and may God continue to bless America."

Statement To The Nation By President George W. Bush
1 February 2003

Monday, January 30, 2017

The sisterhood of the seatbelt purses

When we first arrived in cali, I notice a lot of my new friends had seatbelt purses. I had never seen one before and thought that they were the koolest thing ever! Our first Christmas In cali I was gifted a seatbelt purses of my own gifted to me by my new Cali friends.

It was so much more than a purse, it meant to me that I had been accepted as part of the group. I thought of the purse and still think of it as a sign of everlasting ffriendships. That people here in this new town liked me for me.

Sure I miss my east coast friends, but it's nice having the safe feeling of friendship here on the west coast too.

Saturday, January 21, 2017

Makes you wonder

I thought that I had friends, I mean I have people who I hang out with and we get along. Or at lest I think we do. But then I see them out doing stuff together with out me. So does that mean we are only friends when it's convenient for them and does that really make us friends. Because sometimes I feel like I am forgotten and not as close with peeps as I once thought. Sure this week I been sick (fighting a bronchitis flair up) but it would have been nice to have been asked.

At lest I still have the fab four! We may not talk as much but we know that if one needed to talk at 2am someone would be there, so I guess in that way I am lucky! I have my awesome hubby and amazing kitty cat! My family and the Cali Crew!

Wednesday, January 18, 2017

Not feeling good

Feel like I am fighting the flu or something. I hate being sick, it's one of worst things ever. So am going to post a pic of things that make me happy!

Sunday, January 1, 2017

New year, yet I am still me

Looking at pictures and seeing peeps peers grow old and look it. I look at myself in the mirror and still see the childlike me. I feel like I have grownabut when I look in the mirror all I see is the me!

I feel like I have grown so much yet the outside still looks like a youngling. Wich I guess is a good thing. But I use that others would see the me that I see!