Sometimes a little bit of sunshine is all you need

This Florida trip has been filled with happy times, sad, tears and laugher but I feel it is just what the souls has needed.

It nice seeing Kato saying "I do "

It was sad saying goodbye to Aunt RayRay but it eases the pain knowing that she is no longer in pain.

So amazed and grateful for the amazing kindness and understanding (not to mention treatment of a Queen) that Linds has shown me.

So very Thankful to Froggy for giving me the pushed for this time with the family.

The bonus of this trip has been the time spent with my grandma and knowing that it might be the last time she remembers me.

But so glad to have this time with everyone to make new memories and for every moment to count.

The only will hiccups in this trip was the fact that E and I couldn't see each other but we've chatted and it's always nice being in the same time zone. (Also under the moon and stars at the same time ).

Making space mum proud

One of the things I loved most about Carrie Fisher was that she made not being normal well normal.

I'm going on week 6 of a Migraine (along with dizziness ) and yesterday I had my 3rd attempt at an MRI which thankfully I was able to do. Because I took meds.

By doing something I was reminded that Carrie said that its OK to take them if you need them. It's not a sign of weakness but of strength.

I just

Want to feel normal again. All of this month I've been feeling off and super sick. Thankfully in two weeks I have a doctor's appointment to get a few things checked out and hopefully some answers.

This time of waiting and not knowing is super scary and because I've been so out of it as of late, I feel like I've let people down.

I'm sure many of my friends have noticed but I've been super focused on baseball as of late, that is because it's keep me from worrying about what the Doctor is going to find or not find. Even though it's out of my control baseball has given me something I can control (I hope that makes sense)!

If you the praying type I could use some or if you are not the praying type it would be great if you could send some good vibes my way.

Lots of love to Y'all!

I feel

Like I'm being a friend by not asking how you are but I also feel like  I'm being a friend by letting you be and just reminding you that I'm here for you. That I love you. That you are stuck with me until the beyond the end of time.

31 photos

For the month on October I've been challenged to 31 B&W (no people) !

Not knowing

What do you need?

What can I do for you?

How can I help, can I do anything?

This is not to make you feel bad this is just me venting my feelings and trying not to make it all about me. It's just making sure I am doing the right thing for you. I hope that makes sense.

I hate this feeling, the feeling of feeling like I'm not doing enough for you, the feeling of being so far away from you in your time of need. The feeling of not knowing. The feeling of somehow by not doing or doing what I've been doing that I'm letting you down.

I hope you know that  I'm sending you hugs with love and prayers everyday. You are not far from my thoughts. I hope you know that you can reach out and I will be here / there. You are forever my soulmate and nothing will change that.

I hope that what I've been doing is the right thing. Hopefully if I've done something wrong or not enough you would tell me when the the time is right. I just want what is best for you and what you need.

I understand if you need space, just hope you know that I'm here for you always and forever! 

I'm here

Just know that you are loved and that I'm only a phone call away (or a plane ride) !