~I am Mercer Now~

wow, what a week. After being in each other lives for 10 years, on Saturday October 19th 2013 Froggy and I become husband and wife. The few days leading up to the big were some of the crazest yet some of the fun most every. I feel like my close friends and i became even closer and new bonds of friendship were made.

I really dont remember much about the wedding it self, just looking into Froggy's eyes an knowing that he is my soulmate. what i do remember is having fun getting out on the dance floor which is something that i never do. The feeling of love and being surrounded by friends and family. Seeing the open arms of my new family and the bonds of friendship from the Cali Crew. The fact that the Cali Crew has been so accepting since day one really makes things more easy and special for the love me for being me and dont have to put on a face and being someone i am not.

Now that the wedding is over its time to get ready for the next adventure, the big move to Cali in the middle of January. I am looking forward to the change and the new friends. But it will be sad to leave my family behind!

"The End Is the Beginning Is the End"

Monday starts a new chapter in my life as i move on to a new potions in the company. Which is exciting and scary all at once for it means many new changes. The biggest being not doing the job that i been doing for the past 7 years and know like the back of my hands. The job I feel comfortable doing and been pretty good at. This new job has more room for growth and truth be told i am happy to have a job. My new boss does seem nice and has already but some of my fears to rest. So i am not as worried about Monday as i once was but its still scary. But one most remember that the only constant is change!

In other news i have gone back to my Star Trek roots and having so much fun reconnecting with old friends and making new ones along the way. I am feeling much more like myself and really just enjoying being Me!

Froggy and I only have 98 days to go before we say "I DO". Froggy seems to be getting excited about the wedding and he and the rents have come to some kinda of truce i am not sure how long it will last but i shall enjoy every moment of it for the time being!

That is so Geeky

so lot has happened since my last post. I am now 29.3 years old, there are 175 days until Froggy and I say "I DO". Things are more crazy at work and i now have a new friend at work who is helping me work-out so that i can fit back into my wedding dress! All and All life is groovey!

One of my fav Life Day gifts came from my in-town bestie; a TARDIS phone charm. which i like to call my whovian detector. Becuse since i have put it on my phone i have meet so many more Whovians, which has been fantastic! We have gotten the save the date cards in which are so geeky that its not even funny and i am happy that for a lest some part of the wedding we can have the geek flag fly high.

Then today i picked up my mtg 2013 core set (Green of course). Always fun when that happens even though i don't play as much i once did. there is just something about a new deck that puts a smile on my face!

No words

I been wanting to write a new post for a while now, and it seems that i have the words when i have no way to write them down. when i have the time to write them down no words come, its  like looking at the blank page makes me mind go blank. But i think i have the words now so i am going to give it shot. just bear with me!

So much has happened since the new year started, its been a road of ups and downs. Never is the path that  travel a boring one, thank goodness for that. I have done some amazing thing these past few months and it only gets better from here. Just a few weeks ago i shot a gun for the very first time and loved it. I was totally scared but thanks to the words of a new friend able to it pull the trigger and had a blast (we went to a gun range for another friends birthday)!

The wedding plans are coming together and version is starting to take place, but we still have a ways to go. Thank goodness we still have 8 month to go!

the words have failed me now so i am just going to leave this as is!

But you don't look or sound sick!

I have Having chronic bronchitis,  I am the only member of my family who doesn't smoke and yet I am the only one with bad lungs, thank you second hand smoke.  I normally get 3 flairs up a year and end up having to miss 3 days of work. The rest of the year is spent trying to deal with it and spending much of my time feeling like an elephant is sitting on my chest. The thing is i don't look or sound sick (unless i am hacking up a lung), so sometimes its hard for people to understand what being sick means and why i have to spend 3 days out of work. I don't like the fact that i am sick and i hate the meds that i have to take because they make me all loopy and what  not. I am one of the lucky ones because for the most part i do have a normal life and i have a great support group in my friends and family. Its just where some people deal with a monkey on their back, i deal with an elephant on my chest. 

No Words!

Sometimes one does not have the word for how they are feeling when comes to Death. I had been following the story of this amazing boy from the UK (thanks to one of my friend) who has been battling cancer and sadly early this morning he lost the fight. The bright spot is that he is not pain free and smiling down on all his loved ones from haven. I am sad for the family's lost and that of those that loved him. It does bring back the feelings of the ones that i have lost and may the be gone that are never every forgotten. The loved ones live on in our hearts and as long as we keep the memory alive, our loved on stay alive.

family

i have a crazy one. I love my dads side of the family, like crazy. but i never really felt like i belonged. I am the odd one, the space cadet. no one seems to understand me or really every try. The most apparent is right now, only 2 have told me how happy they are for my wedding. The thing is i know that most are upset that we are cohabiting, but they wont come out in say it. Everyone is ooo and ahhing over my cuz wedding which i can understand why and i am so happy for her, for she has a great guy. I am looking forward to hers and seeing the rest of the family. But it hurts to know that some of my family is not that far away they did not even think to call to say Hi or visits. I know that i could call myself but  it seems like i am the one that is always making the first move and most of the time they never answer...such is life.

I am happy about the fact that froggy understands and even tries to get the things that he does not understand, i am so very lucky to have him and his family in my life. His family is so welcoming and just as fun as my moms side. froggys mom welcomed me with open arms, even after i crushed her sons heart. Froggy's family may not totally get me, but they try t understand and go along with the flow!