But you don't look or sound sick!

I have Having chronic bronchitis,  I am the only member of my family who doesn't smoke and yet I am the only one with bad lungs, thank you second hand smoke.  I normally get 3 flairs up a year and end up having to miss 3 days of work. The rest of the year is spent trying to deal with it and spending much of my time feeling like an elephant is sitting on my chest. The thing is i don't look or sound sick (unless i am hacking up a lung), so sometimes its hard for people to understand what being sick means and why i have to spend 3 days out of work. I don't like the fact that i am sick and i hate the meds that i have to take because they make me all loopy and what  not. I am one of the lucky ones because for the most part i do have a normal life and i have a great support group in my friends and family. Its just where some people deal with a monkey on their back, i deal with an elephant on my chest. 

No Words!

Sometimes one does not have the word for how they are feeling when comes to Death. I had been following the story of this amazing boy from the UK (thanks to one of my friend) who has been battling cancer and sadly early this morning he lost the fight. The bright spot is that he is not pain free and smiling down on all his loved ones from haven. I am sad for the family's lost and that of those that loved him. It does bring back the feelings of the ones that i have lost and may the be gone that are never every forgotten. The loved ones live on in our hearts and as long as we keep the memory alive, our loved on stay alive.

family

i have a crazy one. I love my dads side of the family, like crazy. but i never really felt like i belonged. I am the odd one, the space cadet. no one seems to understand me or really every try. The most apparent is right now, only 2 have told me how happy they are for my wedding. The thing is i know that most are upset that we are cohabiting, but they wont come out in say it. Everyone is ooo and ahhing over my cuz wedding which i can understand why and i am so happy for her, for she has a great guy. I am looking forward to hers and seeing the rest of the family. But it hurts to know that some of my family is not that far away they did not even think to call to say Hi or visits. I know that i could call myself but  it seems like i am the one that is always making the first move and most of the time they never answer...such is life.

I am happy about the fact that froggy understands and even tries to get the things that he does not understand, i am so very lucky to have him and his family in my life. His family is so welcoming and just as fun as my moms side. froggys mom welcomed me with open arms, even after i crushed her sons heart. Froggy's family may not totally get me, but they try t understand and go along with the flow!

My Big Brother

I know that this is going to sound silly to most, and not all are going to understand but this is my blog and my feelings, so deal with it!

Back in the day of SW.com i become the lil'sis to the four horsemen. It was fun because i looked at it like having older brothers and one even took my under their wing so to speak or as much as on can on a message board. But it become more then that, when i was having a bad night he was with an ear for listing and some words of comfort or advise. If a laugh was needed he know how to make it happen or just to be there. He has been there for both of my heart breaks and all of the craziness that is my life. I have tried to due my part and return the favor but i fear it was not as well as what he has been able to do for me.

Now life is making other changes and he is moving on as it seems like most are doing, we are just getting to that age where life is becoming more real and the time for internet games it becoming less and less. But its been more then that because of SW.com and port haven most have become real life friends and the bonds of true friendship are there,Its has become something of a true family feeling!

So its with a heavy heart that i wish my big brother the best of luck in his real life and hopes that everything works out for the best!

Thank you for all that you have done for me over the years and just for being you. thank you for lessons on life and the words of wisdom, thank you for the laughs and for caring. Thank you!

This Christmas

i was so excited for this Christmas because not only was it going to be time with the family but froggy is here to and i was so happy that he was going to be able to spend it with my family. But then sadly i find out he had to work Christmas eve which is when my family does Christmas. I thought with him being here that we were going to see more of each other and get to do the fun Holiday couple stuff....but it seems like we have seen less and less of each other...here is to hoping that 2013 is going to be different.

christmas and whomas

Its almost Christmas and that means so many things. Its one of the few times when my whole family gets together and we do the family thing. My middle sister and I have a movie Marathon of our fav movies and we add some Christmas movies to the mix. As we have gotten older, we are finding it harder to stay up late but we still make an attempt to try and beat last years hour.

Christmas would not be complete without the doctor who christmas special aka whomas! It also a fun show and a great way to reconnect with my friends across the pound. It also brings so many people together and gives a nice break to the craziness that is the Holiday season. 

This year i was so excited for froggy to finally be able to join in my family's Christmas craziness but sadly he has to work, so we are going to make the best of it, but its kinda a bummer because the family wont be complete this holiday season. Thankfully there is news to look forward too and of course we will have next Christmas!  

The other great thing about Christmas is all of the holiday party's and get together with family friends and to remember that Christ birth is the true reason for the season. Its a time to give thanks and praise for all the good and bad of the past year. To give thanks to the Lord for all that he has done and left undone for growth in the coming year!

The Plans

Since the election is almost here and early voting starting today, I thought that it would be a good idea to Share the Plans of those running for President so that everyone can be an informed voter and make the choice that is right for them!

The President's Plan

Mitt's Plan

Gary Johnson's Plan