kinda over things

I know that it's been forever since my last post and for that I am sorry but I am getting back to me, so it should be all groovy again.

I am just feel so sick of people saying the want to hang out with me but when I tell them when I am free, they never get back to me and then post pics of them hanging out with others. They also always say wish that you could join but never invite, so how can I join?

Also bugs when people as when you are free and you tell them, then they stop talking to you. If you don't want to hang that is fine just say so, but it hurts more when you say nothing!

2 inches

Story time : so last week we went Maine for vacation and the thing that I hate most about vacation is flying. Because even though I have lost a lot of weight I am still too big for some seats and have to use an seatbelt extender. So much humiliation because it makes it seem like I have not lost all of the weight.

While on vacation we did a lot of walking and my family was impressed that for once I could keep up with them, which gave me such a good feeling. But because of all the walking, eating more healthy, and I was able to keep up with my normal work out routine I did not need to use and extender on the way back.

I will keep working at becoming the best version of myself.

Good choice vs yummy choice

So I been feeling good about myself and making better choices that is until tonight. instead of a making a healthy choice for dinner. I made an unhealthy one and ended up eating too much and now I have an upset tummy.


It also made me realize that I am never going to be as healthy as I want, if I keep making poor choices when it comes to eating. My workout game is on point and seems to be working, but what good is that if I keep messing up the progress I make with my bad eating?

Another life day celebration

For my Esa, my soulmate, My other half, my world!

As the years go by, I find myself thinking how lucky we are to still have each other and be a close as we are, even with us being on different coast. We are only a phone or text away. We still understand each other and are there for each other.

Sure we don't talk as much as we would like, but we don't let it stop us. We make the best of what we have and know that what we have still work!

Esa, is still the amazing, elephant loving super villain. She is strong, brave and amazing, she is loved by so many !


Here is to the next 5 Thousand Years of friendship and beyond!

I hope that her life day has been as awesome and wonderful and geeky as she, hope that your has been filled with extra love and all of your wishes come true! May this be your best year yet!



Love and miss you, hopefully we can find a way to see each other this year :) !

If you still ask questions you still care

Just love it when people stop watching a show or reading a book series but keep ask what is happening and giving thoughts on what they think is going on but are wrong since they have no idea because they give up. If you still care that much, just keep watching the show or continue to read the series.

LeeLee day 2017

I know what today is, besides being May 1st (May day) it's also LeeLee day. But something is different this year, I am not sad sad, I am sad because I feel like I should be sad but I am not. (Hope that makes some sense). I know that she is gone and I know that she is looking down on me.  I know that she is in a much better place and pain free. I think maybe that is why I am not sad sad this year. I have finally gotten over the fact that she is gone, that she is in a better place and pain free. I know she has been gone for many years and each year it gets better. This year might be the most pain free. She is gone but not forgotten, she lives in our hearts and in the light of the moon!

Workouts are better with support

At the end of last month a friend asked me if I would like to join her workout support group and I said yes!

It was the best thing that has happened to me because I have found a group of girls who lift each other up and don't try to sell products just support! 

As we are coming to the end of the month I am happy to report that I am only 20lbs away from Phase one of my fitness goals!

I am finding that I have more energy, that I am sleeping better and can fit back into some of my favorite outfits. 

This is a new start and I feel like I can keep it going and hit my phase one goal by the goal date!

Sure things have not been the best and there were a few set backs but I did not let that stop me. For I kept reminding myself that tomorrow is a new day, a fresh start, and a chance to fix the mistakes of yesterday! 

If I can do it, you can do it too!