Tuesday, August 15, 2017

A friend said it best

What have we become? Changing history to appease a few? A society focused on always blaming someone or something else for their status instead of being the change. The old saying 'the past is the past' has new meaning: ' the past hurts me and people like me collectively so we are going to force them/the man/you to change it so we can feel better about life and then I'm going back to my couch to see what else needs changing.' Does changing the name of a school impact the learning ability of the students? Does removing statues and flags and eliminating facts from our nation's history, our history, seriously impact an individual's ability to succeed or make a good life? It's a paradigm shift for me. Shouldn't we all look forward, and aren't we as  individuals afforded the freedom to choose our path?

Ghandi said, "A nation's culture resides in the hearts and in the soul of its people."

Maybe we have lost track of unity and forgiveness. We certainly have stopped being a people who respect our history, the different opinions of our fellow humans, and the concept of love one another. It is a long road to find our way back to a place where we cry for our fallen, fight for the weak and rejoice in the collective beauty of this life and planet we share together. And what will they write about us in the history books? Will we become the society who was too selfish, too self-centered to rejoice in the beauty and diversity of this nation? Will we be remembered as the generation who destroyed and eliminated history in an effort to appease those with the loudest voices? History does not oppress a society,  it merely tells the story and bears witness of time before. Would we as living souls be ok if another person or group of people took away 10 important years of our personal existence because it made them feel a certain way?

I beg all to look at the present, move forward, and make a positive difference. Teach your children right and wrong, not right now and who cares if it's wrong, do it anyways and I will support you. Stand up for veterans who stood up for you. Properly care for our parents and grandparents, no matter what they need, which is typically just someone who cares.  Understand again that actions have consequences - good and bad. And start over in your own understanding that people are inherently good. Search for it everyday. Care enough. Give what you can, and give back in kindness received times 10. Be grateful, not hateful. This is not intended as a political post, but intended as only my opinion on the state of our existence as we live it.

Friday, August 11, 2017

Last night

Was so much fun, went on a gals date and found a new friend! We also have a lot in common including our love of chess! Love it when I can connect with someone who understand!  It's also a great way to start the weekend!

I am just bummed that I am going to be leaving soon (going back to visit family as my sis is due to have a baby in September)! But it will be nice to see the east coast peeps again!

Friday, August 4, 2017

Looking back

At the last few weeks, I now realize that things could have been done differently. And I fear that since things were done the way they were it might have caused what could have been a great friendship to now only be one of acquaintances.

Now if only I could go back and find a way to fix things but I have to remember if things are meant to be they will find a way.

Wednesday, July 26, 2017

kinda over things

I know that it's been forever since my last post and for that I am sorry but I am getting back to me, so it should be all groovy again.

I am just feel so sick of people saying the want to hang out with me but when I tell them when I am free, they never get back to me and then post pics of them hanging out with others. They also always say wish that you could join but never invite, so how can I join?

Also bugs when people as when you are free and you tell them, then they stop talking to you. If you don't want to hang that is fine just say so, but it hurts more when you say nothing!




Monday, June 26, 2017

2 inches

Story time : so last week we went Maine for vacation and the thing that I hate most about vacation is flying. Because even though I have lost a lot of weight I am still too big for some seats and have to use an seatbelt extender. So much humiliation because it makes it seem like I have not lost all of the weight.

While on vacation we did a lot of walking and my family was impressed that for once I could keep up with them, which gave me such a good feeling. But because of all the walking, eating more healthy, and I was able to keep up with my normal work out routine I did not need to use and extender on the way back.

I will keep working at becoming the best version of myself.

Thursday, June 1, 2017

Good choice vs yummy choice

So I been feeling good about myself and making better choices that is until tonight. instead of a making a healthy choice for dinner. I made an unhealthy one and ended up eating too much and now I have an upset tummy.


It also made me realize that I am never going to be as healthy as I want, if I keep making poor choices when it comes to eating. My workout game is on point and seems to be working, but what good is that if I keep messing up the progress I make with my bad eating?

Monday, May 22, 2017

Another life day celebration

For my Esa, my soulmate, My other half, my world!

As the years go by, I find myself thinking how lucky we are to still have each other and be a close as we are, even with us being on different coast. We are only a phone or text away. We still understand each other and are there for each other.

Sure we don't talk as much as we would like, but we don't let it stop us. We make the best of what we have and know that what we have still work!

Esa, is still the amazing, elephant loving super villain. She is strong, brave and amazing, she is loved by so many !


Here is to the next 5 Thousand Years of friendship and beyond!

I hope that her life day has been as awesome and wonderful and geeky as she, hope that your has been filled with extra love and all of your wishes come true! May this be your best year yet!



Love and miss you, hopefully we can find a way to see each other this year :) !